I had an epiphany yes­ter­day of how much my aban­don­ment trau­ma is play­ing a big part in my life. In fair­ness, what an incred­i­ble loss to lose your entire social cir­cle and fam­i­ly. No one should have to go through that. But it’s also fas­ci­nat­ing how the fear of more loss can cause me to sab­o­tage per­fect­ly good things.